Saturday, April 30, 2022

In the lap of Himalayas...

Who knows the future and predict destiny? Well it's fresh start for the day every morning. Let's explore the relatively unexplored places.. 
Have a look to a beautiful journey 
We wished to have a short break in the summer, places which must be adjunct to nature, relatively cool and exciting new place. There was lots of suggestions but one of my known person told this place.
Honestly,  1st impression was like "ye Kaun si jagah h" (which place is that), but he showcased some of his pictures during their visit. They have had local experience about mountain and the culture as their native place was Dehradun, capital city of uttarakhand and admirable city I witnessed.
Well, we belongs to flat regions and has no connections there for local guidance. So we opt for tour and travels option. Place we are going was Chopta - Tungnath and travel agent offers Delhi to chopta to n fro option.

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 Opportunity knocked to us for exploring but we have fear of unknown co Travellers.
Pleasantly in late April when entire mid and south India was roasted by 🌞 sun we are going to chill out expecting the snow atleast surrounded to that place. As a dreamer, lush mighty mountain covered with lots of snow, with this dream we reached to the point where we are going to unite with other people.
It's Friday night are we met trip captains and other companions, who knows with whom, memories are waiting for us. Delhi is famous for its winter as well as its summer and we are sweating in night. Thanks to travel agent who gave air conditioner bus for our journey.
Travel start with formal hello hi and soon turned into a blissful joyful atmosphere where everyone was singing gigling dancing ofcourse we all are enjoying. We (me & my wife) accompanied with 20 other people who were totally unaware about each other's culture and nature. 

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We passed beautiful holy places haridwar and rishikesh on bank of river Ganga. Once we thought, these are worthy stops and we should admire beautiful, aggressive but calm composed Ganga here in either cities but when sun rises, and we witnessed "sangam of Mandakini and Bhagirathi" at Dev prayag. 


Both rivers are opposite in nature, one is aggressive, produce noise other is calm , soft. Meeting together to form Ganga and resembles both nature in it. Morning was never expected like this and never admired. But the peace and holiness can be felt only when you witness.

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 Mesmerized by Ganga and its nature.
Our next stop is our staying place that is in the lap of Himalayas,  where we saw greenery,  glimpse of snow mountains and feels like underneath mother's care. Soothing to eyes, refreshing the body and peaceful to soul. That's Chopta, a small village in uttarakhand, where expecting with life is little and giving to mankind is huge.

 I learnt a lesson, nature gave us alot... and every kind creature on the  planet is always giver not at receiving end. It may be super power (God), or nature, or mother or famous personalities.

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Anyway, it's temporary home and our interest here was Tungnath, the highest temple of lord shiva and considered as one of 5 kedar.
Tungnath is 4 km trak but 12000 feet steep surrounding by Himalayan mountain ranges. Shiv devotees recons one of the purest destination for "tapasya" and temple build by recognizing one of the pandav (ancient Hindu culture,  Mahabharat yug) devoted for lord shiva here in ekant (isolation).
It seems people let you afraid of the situation and sometimes it's our decision to leave or to go. Yes, it's a difficult track yes we have to be hydrated agreed not every one can go but we did  by being slow and steady. Misconceptions made us to choose lot of weight on backpacks including 4 litres of water and some snacks but honestly it was foolish decision to carry as everything was available. 

As you know oxygen level on high hills and cool climate may affect you but the views or mesmerizing nature sceneries never let you down and the atmosphere at Tungnath temple worth it for pleasant and relaxing after high stepping.

Mostly people add 1 km and 1000 feet elevation towards Chandrashila to admire the beautiful view, we couldn't do it. One thing that I understood that company can encourage you to climb higher and higher which may be dream of many but alone they can't achieve enough weather it's on mountain or in life. Situation demands a companion and I respect all those who encourage us to reach Tungnath Mahadev and let us explore admire the beauty.

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While returning,  we observe that we achieved lots of elevation. It's never east to step down in fast forward mode but slow and steady is key here too. Reaching back to camps and then to Delhi with now newly known people was an fantastic experience. Yes, we had laughter, encouragement and fun together to admire most beautiful places across the globe and worth to visit.
Cheers to the company and unforgettable memories together.
An...ant

Thursday, February 24, 2022

Change is the only constant

I wonder, how situation enforce you to adapt alter lifestyles. No one prefers a "change", in any aspect of living. But we forget that "change is the only constant in this world". Each of us would like to follow "Newton's law of Inertia", living in a comfort zone. In hindi "jaisa chal rha hai, chalne do". Still scratching my head,
 Newton's law is only for physics?? A big no I would say because the perspectives we feel, we observe and we live is somehow connected with different principles. Some came from science,  some from environment, few from socioeconomics etc etc. Sometimes it feels like these researchers are astrologers and predict what goes on...

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Anyways,  back to inertia. Being comfortable and living with comfort is a modern desire and almost everyone is running after it. Desires, an endless thing which actually increases day by day, knowingly or unknowingly. It lasts till we lasts.
Back to an Era, like people who saw real struggle to make our life easier are crazy about this inertia. They notice every change, admire those in others but remains in their own shells. If a chicken has to born, he has to break egg. You can't expect, chicken without a broken egg. Similarly, you can't expect your desires to be turned true until you put little extra efforts. Sometimes efforts are not turned into results but it's important that you are improving day by day.
A man with his family living a smooth life, at someday something, situation turned out and twist you like water from wet cloth for drying. Increase in workload, clashes with seniors ends up frustration on family. You may think it's natural but never notice what kind of situations they going on. May be kids are bullying by school mates or may got wrong company. Ofcourse they are not matured enough. This increases pressure adding on debates with your own family.

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Sometimes life is curse, where you became crazy in dealing indoor and outdoor situations, whether you can or you can't handle. This makes you a good human being or a bad example. But the thing is, that man wasn't prepared for change in his life. He can't think of situation may induce people around him too. It's easy to judge someone but hard to put yourself into his position. Yeah! Same shoes doesn't fit to all but shoes can be modified to fit.
Change is the only constant. Prepare accept and move on.
Ana..nt

Tuesday, February 22, 2022

success is just a next attempt of failure.

Acceptance is the key and success is just a myth. Reasonably, you paid price of your hard work, commitment and still being in the radar of your own companions is just like you are entering into elections from different parties despite of being in same family. This story tries to explore those pains, every human feels in a life.
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A boy from a decent family. Childhood spent in between demands and restrictions. Not well verse with contemporary learning patterns of that Era, schooling went on average grades. During those days, he had stubbornness and arrogance regarding his nurturing and belief. Who knows in that age where when and how to stop at which point? Lots of "w"'s and it is the Damm truth of every kid even now. These ingredients made an "individual " labeled as situation induced experiences. Boy had a small circle, where he has definate likes and indefinite dislikes. Ofcourse non diplomatic and yelling bitter truth into his head with not grudges in heart. Speaking harsh made your group definate and fan following is solely depending on your scores in exams. Unfortunately,  he had none of these, but has courage to fulfill dreams and smartness to learn in different way. Where do you find these qualities with a sense of humor, truly humanity and trustworthiness in combination of ability to speak truth in front and kind enough to help. 
Years went off neither an attitude nor exam scores changed. Yet a growth prominently popping up for him at very end of schooling. People start admiring his efforts that not turning into scoring.
Struggling for best but when you can't get make best what you have. Nothing comes for free not even failure. You have to pay time, money, energy or struggle to get something but achievement (whether successful or failure) is being highlighted.
Somehow, he managed to enter a college. Things have begin to change. Learning is now becomes change in perception. Perception that matches with dreams and that too visualizing. But, exam scoring still an issue even let him down as a failure. 
Life was going in another way and seems like zero again. Initial point is still missing boy thought. He was thinking he is putting putting enough to become successful but best is yet to come...
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A Wiseman says, success is just an next attempt of failure 
And that miracle happened with him. His thinking became more clear, his learning is after struggling alot, justify the pattern he loves.
Knowledge gives you humbleness and experience provides you filtering abilities to become smart.
People admire you, follows you but friends are still .... very few. When you show mirror and speaks truth, believe me, hard to digest. Almost everyone around you are the companion of your journey, saw your ups and downs but never realize abilities are different. You have been judged with a lucky charm or favorites or bla bla bla but your struggle remains to your true circle. That struggle was a true payment against your accomplishments and one must think upon.

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That circle continues for long despite being separated by career or family or ambitions but spirit remains. It's easy to reach at the top but pain is you still being judged by those who didn't put enough to be at same page. Yes, luck, efforts, support system and most importantly temperament wasn't same for all.

An...ant

Sunday, August 8, 2021

Incoming v/s Outgoing

Sounds simple!
Connected with device or sim card... as simple as able to make calls, that is , outgoing and able to receive call that is incoming. But article isn't focused on simple sim cards or mobile phone. 

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Human being is worried mostly about outgoing, like problems are related to motion (loose motion or constipation), or problems related to emotions (mood swings or depression) or may be related to money (lavish life or poverty) etc etc etc. Actually we are focusing on what we dream, what we expect and what we think. But obvious what we get is a reflection of all these. Eventually, it's good to see what we are able to expend and upto an extent it's good to understand that we are able to make what we can. We should admire it. 
The plate we are getting is full of thoughts process we worked for. Have you think about the backend of all these???  I labeled as "incoming". 

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If we have a sim card, I think most important is calls coming from other end. It opens a gate for make calls at your end. Interestingly we are always after why we can't make an call?
If we eat, then only we get an loose motion or constipation. Ever you thought, if you don't eat you won't have these. Infact,  it's not like you eat rabbit and shit an tortoise, obviously it will be rabbit only. Jokes apart, what we eat will come out.
If you think, then only your mood changes if you don't, won't be an issues like depression.
Similarly,  what we earn, what we have in our bank and based on our priority we have an expense plans to be lavish. 
Deeply, we are not bothering about what we have as an input. Inputs has an huge impact and must be a quality raw material. Putting good kind of potatoes make potato chips not gold. We want a gold then dig out mines or work hard in Olympics.

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Giving something to someone is always precious but you can give only if you have. So focus on what you can earn or you have. So, what to do??? Focus focus focus only on inputs.
Think good, do good. Incoming is the important factor which can change your output i.e. workhard to receive a lot, earn and then do. 
Don't forget, outgoing stops first incoming lasts longer.

An...ant

Thursday, June 17, 2021

The viva "worse"

Hi! I am going to tell the spicy part of every student's life. To be specific, college student's life.
When we were in higher secondary school, we are sort of visualize the dreams and good saying in hindi "khuli aankho se sapne dekhna" and almost common dreams we had during those days. We gonna think we stepped into a college where there will be lots of fun, funky clothes, cool bikes, hot and sexy bunch of friends,some romance and these all in combination of being topper of class in academics. We continue to imagine these kind of dreams and forgetting about higher secondary examinations.

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Well, at about our time schools were about lots of studies and discipline. In early 2000's very very rare there was a love story born in small city schools and  had a set routine of school home, tuition and play. This was a era where having a cellphone is like you belongs to rich family and internet was limit to cyber cafes. Above all pressure from family society that in every job interview high school and higher secondary marksheet will be consider, if you dont score you can't do anything in life and so on...
So, as a typical college Bollywood story lines, we learnt and actually wants to live college life as seen in movies. Reality differs, and that's where we suffer. I am fortunate to have a admission in professional college and that too is medical college. College life is more serious than what we see in movies, our dreams was just a fantasy that we are visualized without knowing the reality. 
We just realized school life was better than college life atleast you have some people whom you can giggle, hangout or meet during outdoor play. Every friend has time for you and ofcourse we don't value our friends that time.

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So, I was in college and despite of being missing school days, somehow we accomodate and make friends and life moves on. Good thing is we are still focused on studies and in different clothes at different settings. One of the funniest part of our college life was actually related to studies that is going to point out. 
During admission we got a copy of university syllabus and usually every education program must have these kind of provisions that syllabus is divided into theory and practical examination. We have to score in both sections of each subject to clear professional year exams.
Initially every one was scared of university exams. See board exams (high school or higher secondary school) is what we faced in past but what is this new nomenclature we came across is university exams. Exams were conducted at some other college, practical exams at our own college but under supervision of external examiner, that is same as we faced in board exams but the twist is viva vorse is not limit to practical questions asked but is to entire syllabus and internal examiner is tougher than external examiner. Ofcourse he understands the build ups, flaws and positive negative aspect of every student.
Our batch had only 9 students and we have to cross viva exam in increasing number or decreasing number. Since majority times exams starts from first number, and till the end, examiner fed up of asking questions. 
We as a students, try to irritate our examiners at numerous times and unknowingly. Well, examiner must have vast experience of asking questions, he can predict instantly as soon as student arrives infront of him. And despite of this, we still want to make them fool, annoy and sometimes angry.

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It's my privilege to be the "opener" in my batch, and there wasn't any dimension set for a examiner. He tries and error by asking different questions to me. Actually, he tries to overview my knowledge as well as how depth my batch has learnt. So,its very clear for me that examiner will ask everything to me. On other hand my batchmate who has to face examiner at last, she was a theoretically sound student who studied every corner of the book. Unfortunately, she has last number and examiner crossed every student before her. That means, struggled to have answers from students,  annoyed by them etc etc.  The moment she enters unfortunately she victim of all the anger and frustration created by our own friends. Helplessly she can blame anyone because "har ek friend Kamina hota h" . Those friends are also give their 100% to annoy examiner, many of them knows understand the questions but they are stubborn enough not to answer in desired language of examiner. This small moment we enjoy everytime and even she smiles although had face serious panic situations. 

This is life, these incidences are still live to us and we giggle alot by remembering those in a group. By the time we realized that due course of responsibilities and so called growth these all little joyful moments were missed but subconscious mind provoke it again and again. I hope you can correlate these kind of incidents with your own experiences. Feel free to share with me 
email Id is : sharmaanant049@gmail.com
Ana...nt

Wednesday, May 26, 2021

The romance of a moon

Too far..... behind the tree...
Tree was lush green loaded with petals and providing necessary oxygen to us. Look at the broader picture. 
Tall tree on a breezy night seems like an handsome boy   moon spotting like an glowing beautiful girl. It mesmerizes the atmosphere and turned into a cool calm portrait, in which universe planned every single gesture into a entitled frame which expels out a different story.

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So, back to the scene...gradually moon comes closer to the tree. Now forget the science where moon revolves around the earth. Feel the atmosphere,  slowly slowly girl (moon) is walking towards a boy (tree). They want to spend some time together with no one else around. Look at the sky, perfect desires is fulfilled by stars (friends and families). No one is around.
what a nature what a glow and blissful to have such small things around us. Girl tries to say something quietly to the boy and his ears (those leaves on the top) is like blowned up. Seems like an different energy came through his ears and whole body felt that. Just like an common boy, a tree had a nasty stand in spicy summer where sun was like chewing all energy and at the end of the day a dull tree still standing tall tells that he required something unique which boost him like anything. That's where the relationship meant to be powerful, even a tired person feels energized when sees his/her mate. 
God has created things don't know with what kind of perception but he blessed humanity with thinking and has own perception. That perception meant alot. It solely describes whose gonna friend or stays in your life for a longer duration.  Despite of fact, everything is faded away at some point. 

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Just another tree, having same environment but here the old man stands, who spent his life in giving. He lost almost everything but still stand taller. Moon sparkles him too but not like an beautiful mate but may be as an medicinal effect like a daughter. That's gives him reason to stay tall. Every day after fighting with dust, sunshine etc even birds are not making homes at him still getting waits for a evening. May be like an old man waiting for his child somewhere at home or old age home.
He desperately wants to express himself when no one around him for the whole day. He keeps motivates himself and look when someone (moon) met him he is also revijunate and feels to start a fresh day that is tomorrow.
Same cool, breezy , calm moon fulfill his roles to different persons but never tired of meeting. She knows, she can make life beautiful.

Time to say thank to every moon to your life and moon should also be thankful to every standing tall tree. Give and take.


Pic courtesy: Kunal Thorat, Divya Malakar

An...ant

Tuesday, May 18, 2021

Realizing; the lessons from early college

I am not going to tell story of 3 musketeers or 3 idiots or any movie story. This was actually a personal experience of mine and is related to 3 persons. Well, I am not going to focus on me but on some one else. 

Myself has ended school board exams relatively at high note. So as an every individual does I was searching for a college by which I can continue my studies and turned into a career. So I got admission in a professional course. September 5th, on auspicious day "teacher's day" I was about to start my new journey. A fearful, alone and unknown to crowd, i was waiting for bus at a place where lots of other students (all having day one , in different speciality but in same college).  I took that bus with others and reached to orientation hall at college.
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Anyone from a middle class background has dream of a successful career and its first step is to get admission in professional stream is like larger than a life.
On other hand, the other two characters (including the main) belongs to same region of a city. Somehow they had an interaction and fortunately they are on the same boat, reached college (not venue) by scooter. The scooter was a famous scooter made by bajaj company and was pretty old, belongs to second lead of the story (I am the 3rd). So in search of orientation hall, they have landed to the most desirable area for boys unknowingly and that was the girls hostel. Watchman was in loo and they stepped into girls hostel. Before they could ask for orientation hall, they understood this is some wrong building we entered. It's better to run away rather than thrown out by warden or some officer. The beauty of our college was there are so many similar buildings that any one can be confused but these two were too much dumb that couldn't see main building infront and went to a building that was behind main building.
Some silly things brings lots of joy in the life and is remembered throughout life.
Since, I have started scary, lonely day at first few hours, they had already a funny friendship start that still in our mind. Eventually, they found orientation hall where everyone was giving basic introduction, background and course in which we took admission. Orientation was conducted by the dean and co and we almost 200 peoples were listening to everyone's introduction and try to find out our batchmates from same course. Here I saw those two one by one and who knows we were going to be friends.
Speaking infront of too much people need courage and was not practiced in schools at that time.
A chubby, short heighted boy from a south Indian background with lots of confidence to speak up and courage to face such audience... that boy was Sid. Coming from higher middle class background and reasonable good school of city with above average scoring in 12th standard he started his journey with us. His companion was resident at similar area and owned that scooter was BD. He was an experience companion as he was in some other college for a while and little bit aware of college situation. So as orientation finished, we found each other in same batch and met for the very first time during lunch. Well others too were part of our batch but fun begins with we 3 Sid, BD and Me.
We all knew we will have a good company for sure.
Fortunately we became friends. As usual friends do, we attend lectures , eat lunch and travel together by public transport. We shared a good bonding, as time progresses we are found to roam around in and out of campus. Sid was bit emotional and was a only child. Me and BD has siblings and knows how to be in same page as we are grown up in that environment plus Sid was relatively sound as far as financial status of our families. With different cultural,  financial and family backgrounds our friendship gradually grows. 
Sid has his own ways to enjoy and was more forward then us, having good general knowledge having access of computer internet freely. Despite of his good opportunity of learning he had some bad company too, who engaged him to fantasies like porn, hanging out with alcohols, video games etc. But his bad side was well covered up with his knowledge,  skills, confidence he had. And he has capacity to accompany all categories of people ranging from knowledgeable,  average to time wasters. Beauty was he can manage every one with ease.
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Innate talent and healthy environment builds a person with courage confidence and drive to try novel things.
Gradually my bonding with him is healthy and we share a honest conversation regarding anything. Even he took me into some fantasies too and we enjoyed each other company. While BD was busy in searching of love it gives a good time for Sid and me to grow as a good friend. BD was there as I have similar healthy bond with him too but that's was a problem with Sid.
 He is emotional.and get attached to everything everyone. He found relations with our batchmates like someone was like his mother, father, enemy etc. I was recognized as a friend, surprisingly even starting a college life with BD, Sid recons him as a enemy. Not because he was opposite to his likes and dislikes but because of me having same bond with both.
I was conservative and Sid wants me to be more enthusiastic and confident. He tries to change little things in me on cost of being with him solely. That's not possible, but he still continues to do better for me. He took lot of stress if I got failed in unit test, or unable to submit assignment on time or teacher scolds me on anything. He is trying to reduce those mistakes of mine. I try to do same for him, help wherever needed. He is a good human by heart, but too emotional and can't accept that a person has other friends too.
Acceptance is a key in every situation. Once you accept things then only you can find solutions of a problem, joy out of situation and competency in competition 
Eventually everything is going smooth. One day, his stress came out in the form of seizures infront of entire batchmates and all were supportive to him even BD too. We came to know he has serious epilepsy issues and me and BD try to take care of his bursting out. His parents wasn't worried at all with our presence. He owned his scooter and showed too much love for me. He travels to my home to.pick me up for college and drops at home too. 
You may think he has pure heart and love for every single individual and to be his friend was fortunate.
His mother seems relaxed with our company and invited all guys to his home. We all had a close look on Sid's life and he was always engaged in emotional bonding and get fooled by many. That's why he hated BD because he had good bond with me too, his experience that many friends left him had unusual fear of loosing me or others too. He was ready to do anything for his friends and with fear of loosing friends many people took advantage of him. Due to that disease, he has issues temporarily with behaviour too but he compensate as soon as he realizes. 
After too many years of being in profession where I could understand mental health too, I realised he is a good soul that time and had selfless approach towards commitment of every single relationship he had in his life whether with me or his parents or other friends even with BD. He had conflicts with everyone but never wanting anything wrong with any person in his circle.

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We both travel together and spend lot of time in studies and other things too while BD found someone in love. His illness increases with we all got failed in 1st professional year of college. No.doubt he is a good learner but sometimes acceptance is more important than caliber. 80% were failed even me too, it took time to recover but need to accept. Anyways,  his stress came out again in the form of seizure but this time on road while riding a bike alone and he met an accident. Fortunately he is not injured much, but his bike was severely damaged so that he is unable to ride it again. 
Sometimes God gives signal to stop at a moment but we are unable to understand and continue to do same things may be we may become egoistic.
We all friends try to explain him and he need to come out of that. We are expecting him to do.so and he was doing. He also tried to get back into normal, watching movies roaming with friends and study hard. He is trying to rule situation around him, and in support an movie released of his intrest featuring great actor of hindi cinema Amitabh Bachhan and look at the fortune Sid lost his life in the theater while watching movie he had an seizure again and this time he was with his bad company.
We all knew in starting we will finish on high end but he won the hearts and we had degrees.
Such a serious loss to our entire friend circle and unfortunately neither me or BD was able to attend his last rituals due to unavoidable circumstances.  Well, Sid was a great friend and fighter. He stood up manier times but can't rid out of stress.
Sometimes a small thing may influence you and your life at larger extend and at that point you can't return. 


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